I can’t love you enough to make you love yourself.

My relationship with you resembles your relationship with him.  I have spent 18 years trying to get you to be who I think you can be.  Only to realize that it is not within my power.  You are an adult, making adult decisions.  I can’t tell you what to do, nor can I give you my opinion anymore.  Because although I know deep inside you already know the things I would love to say to you….  You are choosing not to be honest with yourself.  Maybe you don’t think you can deal with the truth of it.  Maybe you are scared.   Maybe you don’t think you are worth any better than where you have put yourself .  And you have put yourself here.  One day you will find the strength to be honest with yourself, and when you do, I will be here for you.  Until then, I am here…  in a removed capacity.  To protect my heart.  I stand on the side leaning on some thread of hope that you don’t become more lost then you are in this process.

The road is long.  But you, My Love, are worth it.  Trust yourself.  Love yourself.  You are beautiful.