L<3ve Me

I am living my life as though I could care less if I die tomorrow. Yet the thought of dying frightens me to tears. I guess it is selfishness that motivates me to not want to abandon my children while they are still young. To not want to leave my husband to be swept up by some other woman who will discover how lucky I was to have the love of such an amazing man. I do not know why I abuse myself. Habit? Vice? Emotional issues that I feed to avoid dealing with? Yet after a day of failure, I lie in bed and swear over and over that I will make a change...tomorrow. But what if tomorrow never comes? I am ashamed that I am my biggest embarrassment. I focus on loving everyone around me yet I don't nurture myself with the same energy and passion. What if I live the rest of my life ashamed that I didn't love myself enough to nurture ME?

It is my life and I have but one. The time has come for me to love myself...flaws and all. I'm not waiting for tomorrow, I am starting today.