Confused..

I have been wondering lately.  What happened to the days when people actually gave a shit about how their actions or words would effect others?  Does anyone think outside their own existence anymore?

I have a temper.  Hell most of us do to some extent.  I have learned via trial and error how to keep it in check.  I have learned that sometimes the best thing to say is nothing at all.  Especially when I am pissed off.  Anger never translates to reason and understanding.   When I start to do something, I often ask myself how it will effect people.  Am I going to step on toes or hurt feelings.  Is it going to make me look like a total douche bag??  I have always been the type to "try" to filter my thoughts before I blurt or react.

I know that I have stopped myself from things based on the answers to the above questions.  Sometimes stopping myself helps spare others while in turn hurting me. Typical co-dependent behavior I am sure the experts would say.  But I don't care.  I guess I would rather deal with my own anger/hurt or whatever to spare a friend, family member or acquaintance.  Or deal with it on my own to avoid making myself look like a douche.

I have learned that my "say nothing" approach often works out better in the end then if I had gotten my rant on.  Things have a way of working themselves out in the end.  I don't need to always defend myself.  I don't need to always argue in favor of something for folks to eventually see it on their own.  I don't have to hurt people to get my point across.  And I most certainly don't need to hurt people to make myself feel like a better person.

I wish there were more people who would open their eyes before they open their mouths.  I wish there were more folks who would think about the outcome before responding.

Because quite frankly, what your doing and what your saying is ugliness.  And ugly don't look good on anyone!

(repost from May 2010)